Faithful and Flawed
If we learn from those mess ups and strive to do better, then faithful we are called. God does expect us to lay our messes down at His feet and walk away. If we stay on our knees humbly and pray for change God will be faithful to work in us in His time. Never stop trying to get it right with the Lord. The reward in that is beautiful grace and joy. Not beating ourselves up continually. Just seeking earnestly to do right.
Keep your chin up, woman of God. Straighten your crown and walk a little taller. God's got this. He loves you.